I can’t start my life

I moved from the US to London very young due to my Dad’s job. I went to school there, college there. I always wanted to start my life in America, but being disabled I could only do it when my dad finished his job.

I ended uni a year ago but still,​ I’m trapped in a country I do not belong. I don’t actually want to start my life until I’m in America permanently, yeah I may escape dangerous hurricanes by going back to London occasionally but why does it have to be London.

Could be LA or Cuba or any other place I haven’t been.

I feel like I’m being ‘kidnapped’ from having the life I want.